Insane , Maniac
looser or a jack
call me whatever you want
blabber, go away or stay.
My love is calling me again.
I am hitting the road.
I have a few penny or sum grands
your consent or a plain reject
My heart's loud cheer or The world's criticism
nothing would affect.
Nothing would hit the inner bang
that calls me back
that calls me on the roads
I aint no man, no women infact
today let me just be the vagabond I'd been in my dreams
Im gonna live my dream
I am on my feet
I am hitting the road!
Love is an over hyped Illusion.You create a world which never would be real. and most of the time , are lost in that concocted world.
He shattered my world. not only my dream world. he distorted my reality as well. My hatred for 'love' has surpassed my 'love' for him.Now It's a derogatory feeling, by mere mention of my feelings for him, I sink deeper in guilt.They say, one never repents after loving somebody. I say, one gains nothing more than just the pleasure of sight, rush of adrenaline, some unnecessary smiles and infinite unreciprocated moments. That's why I hate love.
I was too much into him that I helped him distort my reality, my sanity, the innocence of my thought, my uncrafty smiles. I let him be the parasite, feeding on my love struck heart. I let him suck out life out of my system. it was only him residing in the head. Like a master who aspired to be pleased, entertained, to be given wealth of moments and emotions, which he could kick at his own free will. I allowed all that, consiously delighted.
So, my hatred for him is nothing even close to my hatred for myself. My own bloody self.so, I've planned my end. a cold blooded Suicide, one might call it. But it'll be gradual. piercing slowly, very slowly, taking out every single drop of blood.
No Blood. No Heart.
finally, No heartbeat.
Closure.
No longer I believe in your mesmerising eyes, which hinted amore
No longer I feel your undone touch, your holding my hand which I thought asked me not to go
No longer I hear those unsaid words which told me you missed me much more than I thought
No longer I sense you walking beside me on the toes, when I feel lone
No longer I reside in the warmth of your embrace, which never let me weep
No longer I dream of you and me, hand in hand walking by the sea
No longer I find you in front of me, when my heart beats to get a glimpse of you
No longer I find you kiss away my tears, which now just dry away
The you:who never said a word, who never hugged me tight, whose heart never skipped a beat thinking of me, who never held my hand n walked me through
you who could only be the recepient
I never wanted to
but I guess, Im over you!
